Today

Just to give an update. Today the world is sunshine and roses in my mind, even though it's actually overcast and rainy outside. I almost didn't post last night knowing I would be back to normal in the morning. I look at that post from last night and think how over dramatic I was being. But honestly, I posted it because I knew I'd feel that way today. I needed to get it down, put it public that this is truthfully how I feel sometimes.  And the next day I can't really imagine what I was thinking and brush it off. I posted last night so I don't keep brushing it off. It's real feelings that overtake me sometimes that need to be dealt with, not just lived through and pretend the next day they didn't happen. They were real. I was afraid. I was overwhelmed. But today, today I'm okay.

Also I want to add that I don't believe I have depression, or even anxiety. I have moments. Short periods where I can't see out of the cloud that fills my head. But I'm always fine shortly afterward. No lasting effects. I'm not really sure what to call that. So I tend to not talk about it. But last night I just couldn't keep it in anymore.