Nineteen

(as per usual, this post is late.. but it was written on July 6th)

Exactly a year ago, I was minutes from being 18. I was freaking out (like, to the point of tears). Legal adulthood. Getting a job. Finishing school. It was all going to happen in the next year, even in the next few minutes. This year, I am sitting in my bed, much more relaxed than I was 365 days ago. I've survived the changes. And they weren't too bad. I knew they'd be gradual. I knew I wasn't being thrown out into the world to fend for myself, but I was still terrified of what being 18 meant. So many things to consider. This year there are changes coming too. I'm starting college. I'm going on a week-long trip with about 25 people I've never met to a Christian college conference... IN NEW MEXICO. I'm leaving the Bell Ringers after being with them nearly 10 years. (Half of my life, people. I've been with them HALF OF MY LIFE.) The prospect of changing friendships, new relationships, just so many changes. But this year, I'm not terrified. I'm thrilled. I'm excited. I have a feeling this is going to be a crazy carnival ride of a year, and I can't. wait. I'm looking so forward to it. The Lord has led me through so much. He'll lead me through even more. So here's to being nineteen. May it be even better than eighteen was. (Which, my goodness, felt like the shortest year of my life. Just thought I'd mention it. This past year FLEW by.) Just 10 more minutes and it will be here...............