Laziness

Laziness vs. procrastination. Are they the same things in our minds? I think procrastination is just the less offensive name we give to laziness. If you say "I'm a procrastinator", it doesn't sound so bad as "I'm lazy". For some reason, to me anyway, "procrastination" seems to suggest a personality trait of occasionally putting things off. Not so major. Laziness implies an actual conscious choice to me. I am choosing to sit around and waste my time. But when you get down to it, I think procrastination is the same thing. It's just disguised with a nicer name. It's still a choice. It just sounds better. Less wrong. I used to tell people I procrastinated. I've been telling the hard truth lately. I'm lazy. Pure and simple. I failed a test this week because I put off studying until the last minute, and then crammed almost a whole week's worth of studying into a couple of hours. Not surprising I failed. That's how I've been lately. Putting fun before work. And I HATE IT. There's a little voice inside me, trying to just tell myself that this is "how I am, I'm just a procrastinator" and "maybe I should work on that someday". This isn't "how I am"! This is how I CHOOSE to be! This is how I've been choosing to spend my time!! I have another test on Monday and several writing projects coming up. Hopefully that big red F I just saw is enough to knock some sense into me for longer than just this moment. I've been sinning in my slothfulness. It's well past time that I take responsibility. It's time to spend my time in a better way. A way that will be pleasing to God.